Rihanna is on the cover of this month's Rolling Stone magazine talking about her relationship with Chris Brown
She says no one, not even her BFF Melissa was allowed to talk to her about Chris Brown.
“I just felt like, why bother? Nobody else is going through it. Nobody would understand.”
Is Rihanna mad at Chris Brown?
“I wanted him to know what it felt like to lose me. To feel the
consequences of that. So when that (stuff) came back it hit me like a
ton of bricks. Like, God, you’ve got to be kidding right now. But I got
real with myself, and I just couldn’t bury the way I felt.”
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Did she think she would be criticized by the public when she reunited with Chris?
“But I decided it was more important for me to be happy, and I wasn’t
going to let anybody’s opinion get in the way of that. Even if it’s a
mistake, it’s my mistake. After being tormented for so many years, being
angry and dark, I’d rather just live my truth and take the backlash. I
can handle it.”
“When you add up the pieces from the outside, it’s not the cutest
puzzle in the world. You see us walking somewhere, driving somewhere, in
the studio, in the club, and you think you know. But it’s different
now. We don’t have those types of arguments anymore. We talk about
(stuff). We value each other. We know exactly what we have now, and we
don’t want to lose that.”
Does she think Chris Brown changed since beating her?
“I know it comes off like that. And it doesn’t help. For a long time
he was really angry, and he felt like he couldn’t get away from it, no
matter what he did. But there’s so many reasons why I ever reconsidered
having him in my life. He’s not the monster everybody thinks. He’s a
good person. He has a fantastic heart. He’s giving and loving. And he’s
fun to be around. That’s what I love about him – he always makes me
laugh. All I want to do is laugh, really – and I do that with him.”
“Of course everybody has their opinion about him, because of what
he’s done. That will always be there. But he made a mistake, and he’s
paid his dues. He’s paid so much. And I know that’s not a place he would
ever want to go back to. And sometimes people need support and
encouragement, instead of ridicule and criticism and bashing.”
Does she support Chris?
“Wait. You think I’m here to rehabilitate Chris? No, no, no. That is
not my purpose. Trust me. I could have done that from the jump if I
thought that was my job. My job was to take care of myself – and I did. I
wouldn’t be here if I didn’t think Chris was ready. . . ”
“I know. And trust me – it makes me feel great to know that people
care. I guess it’s just something that will show with time. There’s
nothing I could say that would convince you right now. But we’re in a
great place. And I can’t ever see us going back.”
On how much she will put up with from Chris Brown going forward:
“Listen, I’ll tell you right now: I don’t have to take it. If he
gives me that again, here’s what I give him: nothing. I just walk away.
He doesn’t have that luxury of f**king up again. That’s just not an
option. I can’t say that nothing else will go wrong. But I’m pretty
solid in knowing that he’s disgusted by that. And I wouldn’t have gone
this far if I ever thought that was a possibility.”
